Hello. My name is Ángela and I'm not a photographer. Or an artist. Or whatever people call me.
If I was a fruit salad, photography would be the watermelon.
I've been drawing my work colleagues for a few weeks now. I'm not very happy with my drawing skills but I like doing it, and that's all that matters 99% of the time if you ask me.
Self portraits are more difficult than regular portraits. They are also more complete I think. When you portray someone you always leave something from you in the result. When you portray yourself the cycle wraps. Doesn't mean the result will be better, but it's more interesting. If we're talking about a honest portrait that is.
When I was a child and I first heard a teacher explaining the "scientific method" it felt obvious. I thought.. Is there any other way to do things?
Turns out there are. And I don't understand any of them. However, in my job that way is not only valid, but necessary.
If I was a fruit salad, my job would be the plate.
It's taken me ages, but I finally feel complete when I'm on my own. I have emotional support, attention, fun, respect, laughter, hugs, good sex.
However, there are other things I can't have on my own.
Help sometimes when I feel like shit.
A nudge when I'm being stubborn.
Homemade food when I'm exhausted.
Interesting stories I haven't heard yet.
Whispers in my ear.
A ridiculously romantic first kiss.
So if you are not planning to give me any of those things, what reason do I have to invest time in you when I could be investing it in myself?