I would like to travel two years back in time and talk to myself..
Don't feel guilty for always having the energy to try again and sometimes choosing to give up.
There's nothing for you here, other than the opportunity to get to know yourself better, but that's a lot.
The same will happen again and again until you learn that lesson.
Everything you think you have, will vanish into thin air very soon, because nothing is real but yourself.
So don't take it too seriously, you don't need to suffer that much.
You can chill, this is not how love feels like, you haven't lived that yet.
You will soon.
Oh! And eat lots of crumpets, they don't have any in Spain.